Thursday, December 4, 2008

Happy Birthday to my eldest son, Nick

Pin It Now! I am sitting here wondering where the last 12 years have gone. It is hard to believe that you are turning 12 today. I remember the day you were born like it was yesterday, the fact that you almost didn't make it still haunts my dreams at night. We have been through a lot over the years and I can only Thank You for all that you have put up with and that even through it all you have become such a fine young man in spite of all our hardships. I thank you for your patience when your brothers always had to come first and we could not do something because they would not handle it. I thank you for all your help when I need it you are the first one in line to lend a hand. You have had to grow up so fast in a lot of ways but you have never once complained, ok maybe once but I dont blame you and I personally would have complained a lot more than you. I love who you have become and that we have such great conversations that only you and I are privy too. I enjoy watching you with your friends and watching you skateboard, even though it make me a nervous wreck, You are so talented in so many diverse areas, sports, your music, your studies and you are a very well liked young man among your peers and everyone that comes across your path, I beam with pride when parents commend me on how well mannered and behaved and mature you are, that they are glad that their children are your friend. I would like to think that it was entirely my doing as a parent but I know that I only had a small hand in it. I think God had a plan for you, you are the one that keeps me sane amongst our daily chaos, and the one that perks me up when I am feeling overwhelmed, I look forward to our quality time together when we just hang out. I know that slowly you are going to slip away and I treasure the time we spend together just as if it is our last, Life is short dont you ever forget that, SING like no one is listening and DANCE like no one is watching and LIVE your life to the fullest, LAUGH at all the things that don't matter,and most inportantly LOVE with all that you have and more.
Happy 12th Birthday baby, Momma loves you

Sunday, November 30, 2008

My first blog on this site!

Pin It Now! This is an intro to me as I get accustomed to this site, I have been blogging on myspace but since I switched to facebook I dont go to myspace and there really is no place to blog on facebook, I also used to blog a long time ago on scrapbook site.
This year school is going so much better Alyx's new meds are working wonders it is like a totally different kid, he has become so much more social and he joined the 5th grade choir, his christmas concert is this tuesday. He is in the Macomb County Young Marines, He has his last boot camp this wednesday and then the week after Graduation, I am so proud of how far he has come and what a GREAT young man he is becoming, I love being around him now that everything is calmer, in return for him being less nuts, it has made me less nuts, I guess that is a bad way to look at it but it is hard to explain, I just lived through it, barely. Last year was a disaster but this year so makes up for the struggles we went through. I love seeing him happy, and my other children are much happier now because we are not dealing with the everday chaos and destruction. On the flipside, my MS is not faring well It started with a bad infection, I had come down with strep throat, double ear infection and a sinus infection, and it has been all down hill from there. Then I made the stupid mistake of once again going to stand in line all night at Toys R Us thanksgiving night and that did it I spent all afternoon friday, all day saturday and this morning in bed. My balance is shot my foot drop is back, which means back to the leg braces UGGH I hate those, and back to my lofstrand crutches at best my husband thinks for safety reasons I should go back to my chair but I refuse at this point to give in,on Monday I may have to start back on IV solumedrol. I hate that too. Lets just face it I Hate having MS, Everyone always tells me what a great positive outlook I have on my disease and my childrens, BUT the reality is I Just am really good at hiding it all from the outside world.

sorry for the mispelled words run on sentences and rambling, hard to do all this while all this is going on in my body.
Chat more later,